anybody want a peanut

Youth

by Sarah K
12/18/2003

You stand before me with your innocent eyes
Green and bright, shameless, blameless
They’re asking me to tell them lies
Begging for answers, helpless, reckless
Your joy, so fanatic over me, crying
Unleashed, unrelenting, rampant, naïve
Spilling onto my skin, not close to dying
Touching, shivering, ready to believe
Anything I do, say, scream
You listen in wonder and wait to hear
You beautiful child, you live in dreams
Unknowing, so sweet, devoid of tears
How can I keep you just as you are
Love, love abounding zealous and fierce
I can’t bear to watch as I break your heart
Knowing the outcome I recoil in fear
I’m trying in vain to protect you from it
I can’t take the thought of you knowing this world
Knowing the suffering, the cold, the fits
The swelling you feel dies for the girl
Still, you live in love’s undertoe grasp
I want to drown with you but know it better
The bitter tide lets you cough, gasp
Enough breath to live but die forever
Your love your joy your faultless emotion
I want to get caught up with you
Spilling over with curious devotion
Laughing, singing, moving into you
So, ok, let me try, give me your mood
This way you feel, lend it to me
Share the violent wind, the soul filling food
The blind, the carefree fantasy
Begging for hope, helpless, reckless
My joy, so fanatic over you, crying
Unleashed, unrelenting, rampant, naïve
Spilling onto your skin, not close to dying
Let’s stay here I can’t watch it leave
Shuddering, shivering, alive in love
Stay here where we will never grieve
Awake, innocent, fanatic in love

Desolate

By Sarah K
12/18/03

Before, I was not exposed
I was sheltered by my walls, my lack of care, the weight of me
My youth, oh my youth
I was better than the one who wanted me
He didn't deserve
Didn't deserve my devotion
Didn't deserve my mouth on his
Was not worthy of my love
I knew it, I knew it
He shouldn't feel my caresses,
I shouldn't hold him like I mean it
But he was there
And you...
And you...
Failing, falling, fading
I can't keep my head up
The walls are gone
Where is my comfort
I care, I care, I want to be out from under
The weight of you, you smother me
Your youth
Your youth outweighs me
You are better
I do not deserve
Don't give me your devotion
Your tongue twisted with mine, the sensation
The endless afternoons of cuddling, warming, swooning, soothing
Take it back, your love
I can't take it, I do not deserve
The music
Failing, falling, fading
I can't keep my head up
You're crushing me, the weight of you
Failing, falling, fading
You can kill me
You can leave me desolate
Your youth, oh your youth
Your melody
I can't take it
Failing, falling, fading
You...
You...
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